Thursday, October 2, 2014
I found myself easing into a healthy routine smoothly and instantly (perhaps a little too instantly), and I've adapted rather comfortably to this new chapter of my life. Classes have been enjoyable and stimulating; I've been learning new things about the world everyday. I've also been learning a good deal about myself - much to my surprise - having to deal with a plethora of loneliness, heartbreak, self-doubt, insecurities, stress (frequently self-induced) and anxiety.
It sounds a little gloomy, but it hasn't been always like that. It is just scary when you're on your own. But sometimes I forget that this right here and now is the dream that I had been dreaming of for the longest time. Many of the people I've met here are very inspiring and beautiful, each of them with a strong sense of individuality and purpose, chasing their own dreams in their separate lives, together and all at the same time.
I have been very busy (and tired), the most I have ever been in my life. I haven't had much time to socialize, make new friends, catch up with my family and friends from home, or even get sufficient sleep ever since school began. And as crazy as it sounds, I'm still driven because I am so passionate about what I am doing right now. Despite these drawbacks, there is an assured sense of purpose I've never had before and although I had never worked this hard in my life before, I actually enjoy it.
September was a challenging and exhausting month for me, but it was a great start to college. I am so grateful to be here in such a beautiful and prestigious place, and for the new friends that I have made. I am excited and eager to see how I'll continue growing from here, how far I'll go, and to form new relationships and create memories with the beautiful and wonderful people here in Soka.